Do not neglect the gift that is in you. —1 Timothy 4:14

I love that line and I have ever since I first found it and pasted it into the heading of this blog entry ages ago. 😉

I can’t help but wonder if that’s what I’ve been doing all my life. I’ve always known that I’m smart. Or at least I have since it was important. That’s not to say that school was easy. It never has been. But that’s all part of managing ADHD on my own with no medical help. We did learn how to juggle symptoms by withholding certain foods that affected me, but there was always that part that I had to constantly fight to be able to focus. I still have to “remind” myself many times about what I’m supposed to be working on.

My ADHD even shows up in my writing. On my bad days I’ll be jumping all over the place. Then on my good days I sort of grimace at what I read and that’s when the extreme pre-editing comes into play. That’s what I’m working on right now. In the process of editing I’m also fleshing out my novel because I’ll see where whole brand new chapters need to be added.

During Robert’s soccer practice today I discovered that I managed to add on another thousand words in one such chapter. I have one more scene that I had just started when practice ended. That scene will end the chapter and I can move on with the edits in the next chapter.

Back to my original purpose of writing this. (I told you I get off track a lot.) With each success, no matter how big or small, I feel like I’m finally doing what I’m supposed to have been doing all along. It sort of brings me a great relief.

I can only hope that everyone can someday find that one gift that they are meant to be using. I hope and pray that everyone can feel that sense of relief of knowing what they’re supposed to be doing.